God Impossible

i am only posting this here because i am linking it to my 365 blog... i'll probably delete it before i return to using this blog as my main.

if not, well... i guess this will be my one and only 2010 post on this blog. :)

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God Impossible

I see my reflection in the mirror

So different from what they see

Darker eyes, wiser mind

Who is this I see?

My mind screams alarm

Who am I as I watch myself

I’m losing this fight

It’s useless and I don’t know

I think I’m losing my mind

I’m judging who I don’t know

Myself in the mirror so far away

Lost to myself

Images pass in my mind

I can’t see it’s all too fast

My reflection dims

And I am no longer me

I want to go away

Hide as before

The reflection stands without pity

And I don’t know who I am

I scream out to no one

No reply in this silence

I don’t understand as I fall to my knees

Praying for some god impossible

The reflection laughs as I begin to cry

And I don’t know what happened

I lost track of the time

Wasted away on some drunken dream

My mind is reeling

I begin to fear as the prayer escapes my lips

I want it to end

I’m afraid of who I am

I look to the mirror

It’s me as I was before

Lost and afraid in the comfort of the dark

Yet it’s new

It’s something I don’t know

My eyes see a world I never knew

And I wonder why

I see my reflection in the mirror

Not who I used to be

Darker eyes, wiser mind

No longer the kid I used to be.