if not, well... i guess this will be my one and only 2010 post on this blog. :)
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God Impossible
I see my reflection in the mirror
So different from what they see
Darker eyes, wiser mind
Who is this I see?
My mind screams alarm
Who am I as I watch myself
I’m losing this fight
It’s useless and I don’t know
I think I’m losing my mind
I’m judging who I don’t know
Myself in the mirror so far away
Lost to myself
Images pass in my mind
I can’t see it’s all too fast
My reflection dims
And I am no longer me
I want to go away
Hide as before
The reflection stands without pity
And I don’t know who I am
I scream out to no one
No reply in this silence
I don’t understand as I fall to my knees
Praying for some god impossible
The reflection laughs as I begin to cry
And I don’t know what happened
I lost track of the time
Wasted away on some drunken dream
My mind is reeling
I begin to fear as the prayer escapes my lips
I want it to end
I’m afraid of who I am
I look to the mirror
It’s me as I was before
Lost and afraid in the comfort of the dark
Yet it’s new
It’s something I don’t know
My eyes see a world I never knew
And I wonder why
I see my reflection in the mirror
Not who I used to be
Darker eyes, wiser mind
No longer the kid I used to be.
