Sometimes Thoughts Just Come and Go

if everything we ever did was okay, what would be the point of living life?

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i remember staring into the sun when i was little and knowing it would make me go blind if i kept at it. but i wanted to see the sun. i didn't want to just feel the heat that was traveling however many millions of miles to shine down upon me.

i wanted to stare the sun down.

i wanted to see the sun.

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you see, it doesn't matter how hard you try, you walk down your own path. it's like a film or novel with a twist at the end. you walk down your road, and at the end, there is a sign that says, "which way?" and it shows two arrows.

one points back. the other ahead.

and you decide then. it is at that point where you decide.

not before. not after. just when you come upon that sign.

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tick. tock.

tick. tock.

tick.

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if you watch a clock and then wish for it to take you back in time, eventually, staring at that clock it will go back.

minute by minute.

hour by hour.

until you realize the past isn't what you believed it to be in the present.

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mirror, mirror.

i wish i still understood.

or knew just who the fuck you are still.

hey, don't you know.

no one is ever going to know.

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sometimes thoughts just come and go. like one second you are thinking about going out with friends you have not seen in months, and then you figure that doing something else may be better.

after all, do you really still want to know?

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fuck.